*lg mracau ga jelas..

sambil nyanyi i’ll be alright..just not tonight..someday..

*tmbah ga jelas.. ) ahh udahan ah..mudah2an ntar bs aga produktif ngepost lg..mudah2an ntar postinganny aga jelas..hehe

Bsok lah paling..skrng udh nganttuukkkkk..

Missing dad so da*n much..i feel him everywhere..glad to feel like he’s still near..

kmarin baru aja slese ngdownload tuck everlasting..film ini pas prtama kali nonton bikin brasa bgt..cuma inget inti critanya,tp prasaan dulu pas nontonny ngena bgt lah pokony..intiny sih ce yg bosen sama hidupnya yg gt2 aja trus ktemu co yg *dia sama kluarganya* immortal..and they fall in love..eh bntar2..ko mirip twilight y?? nah lhoooo..hehe..bedanya klo di twilight immortalby gara2 vampir,klo tuck gara2 minum air..

kmrn akirnya dtonton selewat,byk yg dskip da cuma pngen liat yg ngenanya aja..trus jd inget salah satu quotenya yg ngena :

don’t be afraid of death..be afraid of the unlived life..you don’t have to live forever..you just have to live..

“you just have to live..”
beautiful..sampe speechless aku jg mo ngbahasny..somethings are not meant to be explained,it just need to be felt..

hmm..bahas apalg y?
Oooo..iyaaa..heran sama orng2 yg kyny ribut bgt tau aku ga pulang natalan bsk..banyaaaakkkk *aga lebay..ga sbanyak itu jg sbnerny..haha* yg nanya pulang ato ngga trus abis itu mmberondong lg sama prtanyaan2 lain yg intinya ‘kenapa ngga’ trus ujung2ny ky ngdorong buat pulang..
Prasaan ibu aku aja ga repot2 amat nyuruh aku pulang..malah nyaranin ga usah pulang dulu..
Bandung-Lampung tu ga jauh sodara2..aku ga perlu nunggu ada libur 3hari buat pulang..wlopun emng lumayan bgt..lgan ga se-ga betah itu jg dsini sampe tiap liburan pngen ngabur..

home is where your heart is..and since i always try to put my heart in everything i do or everywhere i go,then i’ll always bring a part of home with me..
*kcuali klo lg homesick akut.. )

Udh ahhh..tidur aahhhh..

daripada kburu lupa mnding lgsng dtulis dsini..

The most important thing is to enjoy your life and to be happy. It’s all that matters. #ihatequotes

today was beautiful..almost perfect..kyny smua jalan ssuai planning..pdhal ga drencanain jg..

Pagi2nya baru tidur stgah1,eh mimpiin ayah..mood booster bgt pagi2..hehe
Aga ksiangan bngun siiihh tp msh dlm bts toleransi..hehe
Dkantor,rapatnya lanccccaaaaaaarrrrrr..lebih dari lancar malah..hehe..seru lah liatnya..
Sorenya,nelpon ibu trus bs ngomongin yg kmrn2 blm bs aku obrolin sama ibu..bikin sesi lah pokony.. :p

Ada bbrp kjadian lg siiiihh sbnernya,tp bukan konsumsi publik..ada yg smpet bikin esmosi tingkat tinggi jg..tp klo hidup isinya sneng2 doang,ga seru laahh y..yg pait2 itu yg bikin yg manis krasa manis..
Jadiiiiii y udahlah y,cukup skian dan terimakasih aja dulu d buat skrng..

Ngantuuuukkkk..

mudah2an dkuatkan lah..kluarga tante dan kami smua..
smuanya insyaAllah buat yg trbaik..

i always believe that whatever happens, in the end, it will always be for the greater good..

jadiiii..yg terjadi y terjadilah..que serra, serra..whatever will be, will be..

there will be no rainbow without the rain..
pdhal pelangi kan cantik bgttttttttt tu..tp tetep aja harus ujan dulu kan..

spupu aku ini tinggalnya pisahan sama suaminya..dia di jateng, suaminya di bandung tp rncananya mo dpindah ke palembang..
dua2ny sama2 kerja, jd aga susah jg klo mo gabung..
mungkin bayiny nunggu bapak-ibuny gabung dulu kali y..ksian klo ibuny ntar sndirian..
yaaahh ga tau lah klo itu mah, smuany udh ada yg ngatur lah y..
kmaren aja pas akirny hrs *maaf* dkuret, suaminy ga bs ikut nemenin..
wiiihhh..keren emng spupu aku ini..seumuran sama aku, lebih tua dia bbrp bulan..suaminy tp lebih tua 10taun klo ga salah..
she’s amazingly strong..ga kbayang lah pokony klo ada dposisi dia ky gmana..

kyny aku lahir dari kluarga yg dua2ny turunan orng2 ‘kuat’.. *eh abis kalimat itu dtulis trus dbaca lg rasany aneh..hahaha
wanita2ny perkakas2 smua..perkasa mksudny..hehe..
yg co mah ga enak lah yaa klo perkakas..emng udah kodratnya itu sih.. :p
ini maksudnya scara mental y..kebneran klo ngliat2 kluarga ayah sama ibu, dua2ny dari kluarga yg jauh lebih pake logika daripada emosi..tp dbilang ga ekspresif jg ngga siihhh..yaaa masih ssuai porsiny kyny tp lebih pake rasio..

ky yg aku bilang k temen aku, aku sih sampe saat ini ngrasa masih bs nglogikain rasa..klo dari hasil tes rorschach aku, ktnya banyak merepress kebutuhan emosional..haha
yaaahh yg penting mah masih merasa nyaman..
di kuliah kan diajarin tu brbagai macam definisi normal, klo aku sih stuju sama ‘teori’ klo definisi ‘normal’ itu adalah ketika masih merasa nyaman sama diri sendiri dan nyaman buat orang lain jg..ga ganggu lah pokony..

out of topic, balik lg ke berita duka..
kluarga ini udah cukup ‘terlatih’ sama berita2 duka..aku tau kluarga ini kuat..kluarga ini jg tau klo smua itu buat yg trbaik..
*mksudny ‘keluarga’ ini kluarga besar aku yaa..

smoga pelanginya cpet nongol..

sbnerny pngen nulis byk..tp ga tau knapa ni dket2 bahu kanan linu bgt..

jd kpn2 aja lah y..

blog ini kyny akir2 ini aga ‘sendu’ y? sedih ah..mo dbuat ga sndu lg ah..klo bs.. :p

and yes, it made me think about my dad..especially since today he should’ve turn 60.. *happy bday dad..you know how much we love you..

balik ke filmny, suka aja ngliat dinamika kluargany..
saling support, slalu ada buat satu sama lain..whatever decision they make..the father-daughter relationship is just beautiful..eh mother-daughternya jg deng..how they love each other unconditionally..sweet..
eh father-mothernya jg kereeennn.. *husband-wife kali y hrsny? :p
that’s how a perfect marriage will look like..in my opinion..

yg part II ga trlalu seru..yg prtama yg bikin nangis darah..hehe..kereeeennn..ga tau knapa, suka aja ngliatnya..maybe it reminded too much of what my father has and will miss..
me and my sister’s graduation, our first day at work, our marriage one day, his grandchildren one day..and many more..
and all the annual things like our birthdays, mom’s birthdays, lebaran, idul adha, new years..an awfully long list to carry on..

life happens anyway..bukan mo ngeluh kooo, cuma pengen sharing aja..

and since today is his birthday, its better to celebrate the life he has lived..a well lived life for he will always be missed..

happy bday dad!! the greatest man i’ve ever known in my life..my guiding star..such and inspiration for me and *i know for sure* for a lot of others..
you’ll live forever in our hearts..

i just don’t have the ability to read between the lines..

*well maybe i can,but i choose not to believe it until someone says it loud and clear..

always been the lowest point of the year for the last four years..

the month to celebrate the birth of the greatest man ever alive *in my opinion*..
but also a reminder of when we lost him..

a week before his 56th bday..
should’ve been 60 this year..

i don’t want to ask a lot..i’ve already got a lot of things that i should be grateful of..

but,dear God,i think i do need a little more strength to get through *at least* this month..

we miss him too much.. (

dtmbah kmaren tmen2 pada cerita2 ttg apa yg dlakuin ayah2ny klo lg kngen ato pngen nghubungin mereka..
untungny lg punya sdikit energi lbih untuk ngontrol diri..klo ga,bs breakdown dtmpat..

i know it will be a hell lot easier just to breakdown and fall..
but i believe i’m more than that..
at least i hope i’m more than that..